Despite many years of playing contemporary music and working extensively with living composers, it never occurred to me to write my own music. I wasn’t even sure what „my“ music would sound like. Even improvisation was something I shied away from – I was perfectly happy interpreting the music of others.

That all changed for me in 2023 when I discovered modular synthesizers. I was looking for a way to expand my musical practice into the digital world, so I took a course on modular synths hoping to learn how to design my own electronic sounds. I became fascinated by synthesis and began intensely exploring the world of modular synthesizers, first digitally then in hardware.

Suddenly I found myself making music – my own music – for the first time in my life. Something about the workflow of modular spoke to me. As soon as power is flowing through the modules, the oscillators start humming to me, forcing me to shape their sound in real time. Instead of sitting in front a blank sheet of manuscript paper wondering which note to write next, I’m working with an instrument which is offering its own solutions to the question of “what next”.