Trading Thoughts for Sleep

Isolation Alone but all together The feeling of creation Loneliness and desertion Up above, while they look down below You can't burn yourself, to keep the others warm A path of self righteous thinking The issue is somebody else A tightness in my breathing I feel so alone They pretend like they see me A ghost like noone else Sometimes I feel like heaving And crying for help Judgement, the boundless feeling A heart thats lost home There is no place for healing Nobody knows Desolation The anger that builds within me A flame that cannot be contained Oh ire and endless fury The rage that's always been Smouldering ashes into flame Rising up internally The anger rages in me I would trade all these thoughts for sleep The Restless nights , I hunger for dreams The constant pumping of my heart A sinking feeling that it's falling apart And If I were to never breathe again What a relief it would be, to meet my end A constant worry of leaving behind A life that to others might seem fine The ones I love few and far between An end unforseen Through constellations So Far beyond the flesh Past the gates and through the aether To the planes of death The cold stone pathway, Lined of moss Walks me through all these lives I've lost Past the realms and the in between Please release me of all I've seen The empty space through the knot Of the hangman's noose Shimmers and calls to me Visions of life break and shatter Loosing all reality Am I where Ive always been On the cusp of eternity Taking the final step Embracing the eternal sleep The final curtain once risen, falls The end of this journey, the sleep~ now calls The flickering flame in my soul, now fades Towards eternal somnium, letting go