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Freedom / Reunited / Finale

from Indoctrination

June 4th, 2025
12 tracks
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Indoctrination
Indoctrination
Freedom / Reunited / Finale
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Freedom / Reunited / Finale
Carmine Rebellion
i. Freedom I'm out on the road Alone and afraid I don't know where my home is I'm wandering and lost I'm feeling distraught I don't know where I’m going But… I'm finally free Free of their influence Free to be me Free from their control I've taken back my soul I'm scouring my memories Searching for clues My mind must hold the answer My love, where will I find you? I'm finally free Free of their influence Free to be me Free from their control I've taken back my soul I’m free but at a cost I have escaped but I am lost I’m free but alone I don’t know how to find my way home Where is she? I long to see her face To hold her in my arms And I don't care If they say it's wrong Where is she? The woman that I love? It must have been so long Does she still wait For me to return? ii. Reunited Welcome home, my wayward love At last, you're safe You're not alone You're here with me You're finally home At last I've found you I've been searching so long We're back together I’m back where I belong Reunited back together Reconnected after my exile Reacquainted it’s been forever Reunited and finally reconciled At last I'm with you After so long away I'm back with you now It’s where I want to stay Reunited back together Reconnected after my exile Reacquainted it’s been forever Reunited and finally reconciled iii. Finale I’m finally free I’ve found my way back home I’m free to be me Free from their control I’ve taken back my soul I’m finally free You cant change me No matter what you do This is who I am And I won't change Just to appease you You can't change me I was born this way This is who I am And I wont change I am here to stay
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Indoctrination is a speculative fiction concept album. It tells a story about a woman who wakes up with amnesia. She is indoctrinated into a seemingly friendly cult, but things take a sinister turn. Gradually, it becomes clear that she is being subjected to a weird form of conversion therapy. (Content warning - look after yourself!)

This felt like a very important project to me. I've thankfully never experienced conversion therapy myself, but I find the concept horrifying. It wasn't a subject I intentionally set out to tackle. I was working on a story idea - as an exercise - about a woman with amnesia being indoctrinated into a cult. Her lesbian awakening was originally a way of creating some friction between her and the cult, because the character needed motivation to leave. But as soon as I considered it, I realised that she had effectively experienced a sort of conversion therapy. That gave the idea a new importance to me, and I felt like I should pursue it. I re-worked the plot a bit more to make the conversion therapy aspect a deliberate scheme, rather than an accident, and set to work. I hope I've done the subject justice.

Credits

Music and lyrics by Mara Flint. Performed by Mara Flint.