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Awakening

from Indoctrination

June 4th, 2025
12 tracks
76:02
Indoctrination
Indoctrination
Awakening
0:00
7:16
Awakening
Carmine Rebellion
Voices disturb my sleep Voices I don’t recognise Voices so indistinct Voices I can’t identify Faces in the light Faces I don’t recognise Faces so indistinct Faces that will change my life I don’t recognise this place I don’t remember how I got here I don’t understand what’s happening I don’t know how to calm my fears
5:53

Indoctrination is a speculative fiction concept album. It tells a story about a woman who wakes up with amnesia. She is indoctrinated into a seemingly friendly cult, but things take a sinister turn. Gradually, it becomes clear that she is being subjected to a weird form of conversion therapy. (Content warning - look after yourself!)

This felt like a very important project to me. I've thankfully never experienced conversion therapy myself, but I find the concept horrifying. It wasn't a subject I intentionally set out to tackle. I was working on a story idea - as an exercise - about a woman with amnesia being indoctrinated into a cult. Her lesbian awakening was originally a way of creating some friction between her and the cult, because the character needed motivation to leave. But as soon as I considered it, I realised that she had effectively experienced a sort of conversion therapy. That gave the idea a new importance to me, and I felt like I should pursue it. I re-worked the plot a bit more to make the conversion therapy aspect a deliberate scheme, rather than an accident, and set to work. I hope I've done the subject justice.

Credits

Music and lyrics by Mara Flint. Performed by Mara Flint.