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Haunted By A Dream

from Indoctrination

June 4th, 2025
12 tracks
76:02
Indoctrination
Indoctrination
Haunted By A Dream
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Haunted By A Dream
Carmine Rebellion
Through the day, acting normal Hiding what I feel inside Never letting my mask slip But don't get lost inside the lies But when I sleep I'll have the dream again It's been two weeks, every night the same A woman's face I’m drowning in her eyes A loving smile and all that it implies I’m haunted by this dream Is it just a dream or is it real? I can't work out how I should feel Haunted by a dream Every minute, every day Carefully guarding every thought Smothering my deepest feelings I hide and hope I won't get caught Every night seeing that same dream It weighs on my mind I wonder what it means Always the same the woman's always there Remembering a moment that we shared I’m haunted by this dream Is it just a dream or is it real? I can't work out how I should feel Haunted by a dream Who is she? I’m haunted by her face But still she brings me peace If they really cared They wouldn’t say it’s wrong I’m haunted by this dream Is it just a dream or is it real? I can't work out how I should feel Haunted by a dream
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Indoctrination is a speculative fiction concept album. It tells a story about a woman who wakes up with amnesia. She is indoctrinated into a seemingly friendly cult, but things take a sinister turn. Gradually, it becomes clear that she is being subjected to a weird form of conversion therapy. (Content warning - look after yourself!)

This felt like a very important project to me. I've thankfully never experienced conversion therapy myself, but I find the concept horrifying. It wasn't a subject I intentionally set out to tackle. I was working on a story idea - as an exercise - about a woman with amnesia being indoctrinated into a cult. Her lesbian awakening was originally a way of creating some friction between her and the cult, because the character needed motivation to leave. But as soon as I considered it, I realised that she had effectively experienced a sort of conversion therapy. That gave the idea a new importance to me, and I felt like I should pursue it. I re-worked the plot a bit more to make the conversion therapy aspect a deliberate scheme, rather than an accident, and set to work. I hope I've done the subject justice.

Credits

Music and lyrics by Mara Flint. Performed by Mara Flint.