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Confession

from Indoctrination

June 4th, 2025
12 tracks
76:02
Indoctrination
Indoctrination
Confession
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7:16
Confession
Carmine Rebellion
She came to me this morning She was nervous and afraid She gave me her confession I've never felt more betrayed It wasn't an accident, she said They planned to bring me here They drugged me and took me from my bed They hurt me just for being queer She said… It’s been eating me inside I've screamed and I have cried I've tried and I have tried To bury these thoughts But they won't be repressed I feel so distressed And so I confess The whole sordid plot We were sure that total immersion Could lead to total conversion More then denial or suppression A full rebirth with no regression And now we can see that we've saved you Look at yourself and know that it's true You're no longer the sinner you used to be We've broken you out and set you free I don't feel like Ive been saved I've been abused; I've been betrayed The torture they inflicted Has left me scarred and twisted Now I see through their duplicity I understand what they did to me It was all just a pretence They were never my friends
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Indoctrination is a speculative fiction concept album. It tells a story about a woman who wakes up with amnesia. She is indoctrinated into a seemingly friendly cult, but things take a sinister turn. Gradually, it becomes clear that she is being subjected to a weird form of conversion therapy. (Content warning - look after yourself!)

This felt like a very important project to me. I've thankfully never experienced conversion therapy myself, but I find the concept horrifying. It wasn't a subject I intentionally set out to tackle. I was working on a story idea - as an exercise - about a woman with amnesia being indoctrinated into a cult. Her lesbian awakening was originally a way of creating some friction between her and the cult, because the character needed motivation to leave. But as soon as I considered it, I realised that she had effectively experienced a sort of conversion therapy. That gave the idea a new importance to me, and I felt like I should pursue it. I re-worked the plot a bit more to make the conversion therapy aspect a deliberate scheme, rather than an accident, and set to work. I hope I've done the subject justice.

Credits

Music and lyrics by Mara Flint. Performed by Mara Flint.