enough is a myth

you’ve resigned yourself to a life of regret a rejection of the gifts we offer everyone you’ve lost, every death you’ve caused embrace the choice you’ve made to suffer

every wall becomes a door and every door becomes a hall and every hall becomes a stair that leads to your exquisite end that blade was meant for you you’ll mark a sacrifice an altered state of being oh, save your breath for screaming every eye will see the pit and every ear will hear the scream and every step leads further down the labyrinth of abyssal dreams a cage was forged in secret a trap in many parts a new configuration deception in his heart pull the folds of flesh lay the metal binds an audience with god leviathan divine i reject your gift

i hear the bells the angels calling me home a joyful note, without change, without end i pray for my salvation the sovereignty of anguish eternal saprophyte decaying on the surface and rotting from inside unsavory desire a fire that consumes a search for greater thresholds the end in silence looms i fear this hell the demons calling me home unbound by pain, besotted lust i beg for my damnation a gift cannot be un-given a wound cannot be un-inflicted there is so much more the body can be made to feel enough is a myth

what new sensations will i be made to feel in hollow spaces where nothing quite seems real a cold machine is threaded with my tender nerves it turns in random cycles a pain that i deserve but i i built a cage and i reject your gift i hide between the walls i wait to heed the call

how many times can you drink of that poison before your soul will die? how many times have you chosen to suffer and i have remained at your side? how can we ever repair this division when i never wanted to part? how could you choose to betray my devotion? a mark of your withering heart accept the pain that you have wrought your violent design no demon has possessed your form the shell in which you hide addiction guides your weary hand to plunge into the sea but resurrection never comes without divine decree bitter and brief, the embrace of a traitor i was a fool to believe you my savior somehow i know you are never coming back o, dear sister i shall mourn you o, dear sister please come back

you know you hold the power and you know you don’t wield it well when you break the oath of liars you condemn yourself to hell why am i the only one who sees behind the veil? free me from these clutching loins, you’re far beyond the pale you laid your hands upon me and you’ve paid no price, til now you bequeath nothing of value but the pain that you disavow when you scream with the wrath of vengeance i fall deaf to your desperate pleas you believe there’s no retribution for these wounds that you gave to me the devouring mother how you wear away my will i shall blame no other for the girl you tried to kill fear was so loud in my eyes loss of the life you denied never saw you as a threat til it was far too late never saw you as a threat til it was far too late the death of my youth and how many times i tried to escape by ending my life i was a princess locked in a spire i heard the trumpets announce the fire the cord was not cut but wrapped round my throat a leash for your pet to drain me of hope awake in a trance i finally see the power you used to subjugate me you tried to raise a man to be the husband you desired sophoclean tragedy by which you were inspired free me from the shackles of the water of your womb suffer, my jacosta, as you rot within your tomb would you eat the afterbirth to cast a wicked spell? become the leviathan, a gift bestowed by hell? suffer all the pain of your perverted carnal acts power without conscience and the soul will then collapse i hope you burn forever