The Age of Decay

It's been a long, long time since I memorized your face It's been four hours now since I wandered through your place And when I sleep on your couch, I feel very safe And when you bring the blankets, I cover up my face I do love you I do love you And when you play guitar, I listen to the strings buzz The metal vibrates underneath your fingers And when you crochet, I feel mesmerized and proud And I would say I love you, but saying it out loud is hard So, I won't say it at all And I won't stay very long But you are the life I needed all along I think of you as my brother, although that sounds dumb And words are futile devices

We’re wasting away We’re losing control We watch our hope fleet into the dust This millennium watch as we decay Dead leaves blanket the ground Cracks collect and they surround The vines creep through the glass Tightly binding what they pass Beneath the boards of the floor you hear the creaks Of matter and mind theoretical leaks The water fills up enough to silence your speech Passing storms hostile to oxygen you seek Lines between fiction and this life blur As every foundation breaks apart Watch it stir The basics we knew rotten to the core What can we restore? Or are we wrapped in fancy metaphor? We’re wasting away (We’re all victims of time) We’re losing control (Broken promises are all we got) We watch our hope fleet into the dust (As this story unfolds) This millennium watch as we decay I just wish I had the time to prepare For this age of decay, this onslaught of despair The lichen covers the walls, spores in the air Coated iris cries, onlookers gather and stare Will I live through another breaking development Meticulously crafted to keep raising the price of rent? The roots crawl through the pipes Challenge mortality Imagine what we’ll overthrow when we become free We’re wasting away We’re losing control We watch our hope fleet into the dust This millennium watch as we decay

I've got chills up my spine from the bolts through my mind And it feels like I spin through this internal strife I can't think, I can't grasp what I choose So hear I am as I lay here and wait in a labyrinth of loops And it hurts to be told what feel are projections Casting shadows of doubt, devoid of gravity Diagnosis is cheap, all you hear i novelty How I speak, what I say Cannot calculate this pain Hangin' on the line cuz we're hangin' buy a thread Guided in a loop while these dollars play pretend Crawlin' through the hoops got us brushin' up to death I was born to be cast from plain sight expendably Sacrifices of ease, symbol of frivolity Now my bones aren't the same I have aches to my brain Silently killing me Paint the streets in what I bleed Hangin' on the line cuz we're hangin' buy a thread Guided in a loop while these dollars play pretend Crawlin' through the hoops got us brushin' up to death I've got chills up my spine from the bolts through my mind And it feels like I spin through this internal strife

Another first in recent history We hear you out, we are your family Quality time under a strict deadline My dread tracks in a spreadsheet cell Unprecedented, hope this finds you well Now there's a call outside my door Extract pain for big gain It's not a priority How should I expect to sleep tonight? Mass graves and near flames We don't pay no mind We're driving blind, another dark day Your existentialist exercise Put down your head And join our weekly yoga class Between your 9 to 9 Calculated casualties left unnamed But a ten percent discount remains unclaimed Now there's a call outside my door Extract pain for big gain It's not a priority How should I expect to sleep tonight? Mass graves and near flames We don't pay no mind Responsible nightmares Distractable terror Inconvenient anxiety Now there's a call outside my door Extract pain for big gain It's not a priority How should I expect to sleep tonight? Mass graves and near flames We don't pay no mind How do you fall asleep at night? Mass graves and near flames You don't own my time

What if we could know every spell Incantations to lift us from hell In our story we touch the stars Wondering how did we leave off so far Every plan is a myth Chasing a normal that doesn't exist We deserve outer space When we hold hands the planets should spin All the stars should be in our reach Yearning for life get labeled a leech Search stability stars rain shards Our lives should not be so fucking hard Every plan is a myth Chasing a normal that doesn't exist We deserve outer space When we hold hands the planets should spin Planets should spin

Daydream away, love's unconditional Imagine days, no dysfunction in my family name Memories distort, her love is my passage to pain Her recollection smiles, the past says anger untamed Can we reset, try to be average? Data's not on our side I'll break the cycle tonight Wanna keep me in your mold made to fit your lack of control You're getting older now you shoulda known You can't contain the world through scream and shouts Anger bouts, sowing doubt Biblical threats are empty And living is better when you get free Patterns repeat, love cloaked in poison A trauma bond disguise, another tearful goodbye If you ask me can we start over? I'll simply decide for no more cycle to ride So what if you claim to change, change your tune Reconsider everything it is that you do The only thing worse than a first chance Is to turn back around and offer two Your codependency whirlpools around And I'm dodging tides so I won't get drowned All I've ever wanted was a home to call my home A caregiver you've become, your new improved tone Offering dreams and my wishes to come true But the hidden dagger in your hand isn't new Too little too late the past is past Will you resent, regret, chalk it up to fate? You made a choice a long time ago When a child in your life needed you the most No words of affection and pressure on my skin Gonna make sure it won't happen again You trivialized, minimized, infantilized I'm grown up now, you can't pretend My daydreams say love's unconditional

Fantasies of mechanic undead Vengeance for sins we commit Tragically grounded in the mundane Famine is right by your bed Sci fi titans the flesh they are fed Run off instinct to behead In reality nothing has flair We'll march through the heat to our death Stillness, a feeling of familiar Desire, a lack of experience A longing for what we’ve lost, what we don’t know What exists in the dreams of past selves memories A wish to conjure up a magical force to pin blame for the lack of rain Inability to hear my thoughts, a needle drop Serenity never has been seen It’s getting harder to breathe Empty your head and walk outside Witness the dwindling flocks fly by A slow moving chaos descending upon us Enemies created to explain away Monsters we lean on to save the day It’s hard to accept outside of a game What sacrifices will have to be made To gain shade, grain, some rest A longing for stillness Warm skylines dust my eyes Ashes rise Mech police can be beat But first Stand still, listen, listen There’s no glamour to be found in this situation Do or die, high crime, let’s go out with a boom No time to be afraid when the score says doom Bug mortality 90%, algae in bloom No place where waste isn’t up to the waist Food supply left with a terrible taste Oceans is toxic, the forest is rotted And these rich motherfuckers think they got it Digital this and technology that A quick fix with a beverage or a baseball bat A pocket full of magnets, a stroll around the block Another server farm down, a system laid in shock No bot deliveries, puppy dog machines Spray paint and a push, state surveillance wiped clean Throw fent on the cops, make the wealthy flee Make em rot inside the bunkers they retreat Fantasies of mechanic undead Vengeance for sins we commit Tragically grounded in the mundane Famine is right by your bed Sci fi titans the flesh they are fed Run off instinct to behead In reality nothing has flair We'll march through the heat to our death